One of the biggest struggles I’ve had to deal with recently is the idea that my life has been meaningless. This stemmed from watching countless videos about purpose, passion, and meaning. It’s been such a vague journey with no real end in sight because it is such a vague question. What exactly is a meaningful life? So many people have come up with various answers, but the truth is that we are supposed to make meaning out of our own lives or it is already given to us.

Then there’s happiness and how we find, nurture, or create it in our lives. I’ve found that while I was living a meaningless life, I was, for the most part, at least quite happy in my ignorance because I didn’t have to deal with such a difficult question. I’ve pretty much already answered this question through solipsism because I am all that can be known, so my happiness and meaning are simply for me. This wasn’t until recently that much of my happiness is also derived from my friends, family, and the connections that I’ve made.

The people around me shape and mold me into what I am and how I think. For the most part, I am happy with the way I turned out. I turned out to be relatively normal, which was a little bit far from extraordinary, which was what I initially aimed for. It turns out I couldn’t really handle extraordinary when coming from an ordinary middle-class family. I couldn’t find the tools or the network to fully bring out sustainable potential within myself. Without a solid foundation, it’s easy to get lost in all the chaos that an extraordinary life brings about, and it can be quite dangerous, especially when I didn’t know what I was doing. I’m grateful to have made it out alive.

However, I am still left with the question of meaning in my life, and since we create our own meaning, I’ve kept it simple. The meaning I get is derived from achieving my goals, whether material or otherwise. I used to overcomplicate this and tried to make it deeper than it really is, but life really doesn’t have to be that complicated. At any point in time, once we know our own skills and abilities, it is really possible to do better, little by little.

Until the next post, thank you for reading! As always, wishing you love and success!